2.07.2007

.. kau datang dengan sederhana ..

Angkasa tanpa pesan meringkuh s'makin dalam
Berselimut debu waktu, 'ku menanti cemas
Kau datang dengan sederhana
Satu bintang di langit kelam
Sinarmu rimba pesona dan kutahu tlah tersesat ..

Kukejar kau ... takkan bertepi
Menggapaimu ... takkan bersambut
Sendiri membendung rasa ini
Sementara kau membeku ..
Khayalku terbuai jauh
Pelita kecilmu mengalir pelan dan aku terbenam..

Redup kilaumu tak mengarah
Jadilah diriku selatan
Namun tak kau sadari hingga kini dan nanti...

1.05.2007

.. i shall believe ..

Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it's a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe
I'm broken in two
And I know you're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key

Never again
would I turn away from you
I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe

- sheryl crow -

8.16.2006

.. communication ..

for 27 years I've been trying ..
to believe and confide in different people I found ..

some of them got closer than others ..
and some wouldn't even bother .. and then you came around ..

I didn't really know what to call you ..
you didn't know me at all .. but I was happy to explain ..

I never really knew how to move you ..
so I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins ..
and I saw you ..

but that's not an invitation! that's all I get ..
if this is communication .. I disconnect ..
I've seen you, I know you, but I don't know how to connect ..
so I disconnect ..

you always seem to know where to find me ..
and I'm still here behind you in the corner of your eye ..

I'll never really learn how to love you but I know that I love you ..
through the hole in the sky .. where I see you ..

well, this is an invitation! .. it's not a threat ..
if you want communication .. that's what you get ..
I'm talking and talking ..
but I don't know how to connect ..
and I hold a record for being patient .. with your kind of hesitation ..

I need you, you want me ..
but I don't know how to connect ..
so I disconnect .. I disconnect ..

-- the cardigans --
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mm ... cannot .. i cannot disconnect ... damnit!

6.13.2006

.. picture of my life ..

I never had a dream that I could follow through ..
Only tears left to stain .. dry my eyes once again ..
I don't know who I am .. or what I'm gonna do ..
Been so long .. I've been hopelessly confused ..


The precipice is there but will I ever dare ..
Throw myself in the sky .. so at last I can die ..
See I've become a man who holds nothing too dear ..
Who will mind if I just disappear ..

This can never really end .. it's infinitely sad ..
Can someone tell me when something good became so bad ..
So if you have a cure ..
to me would you please send .. A picture of my life ..
with a letter telling how it should really be instead ..

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when you're feeling down, this song could drag you straight into the pitypool, beware !!!

5.15.2006

.. a case of you ..

Just before our love got lost you said
"I am as constant as a northern star"
And I said, "Constant in the darkness
Where's that at?
If you want me I'll be in the bar"

On the back of a cartoon coaster
In the blue TV screen light
I drew a map of Canada
And I sketched your face on it twice

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still I'd be on my feet .. I'd still be on my feet ..

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I'm frightened by the devil
And I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid
I remember that time that you told me, you said
"Love is touching souls"
Surely you touched mine
"Cause part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
And you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still I'd be on my feet .. I'd still be on my feet ..

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said
"Go to him, stay with him if you can
Oh but be prepared to bleed"
Oh but you are in my blood you're my holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
I could drink a case of you darling
Still I'd be on my feet .. I'd still be on my feet ..

4.04.2006

.. stranger ..

i still remember the first time i saw you ..
in the library lift up to the twenty-fourth floor ..
from where i stood you looked like an angel ..
so i didn't move until you walked out the door ..

the metro .. the bus stops .. the market .. the disco ..blank cds ..
in strip malls .. in restaurants .. in juice bars .. in hallways ..
in parties .. the salon .. the airport .. in the rain .. in the streets ..
in sunshine .. in short sleeves ..in makeup .. at night clubs ..
in the dance floor.. all around ..in the evening .. at sunrise ..
at lunchtime .. at midnight .. through windows of taxis ..
classrooms .. highrises ..

i fell in love the first time i saw you ..
even though we never met ..
and i still see you at the clubs and in cafes ..
and every night you're in my dreams ..
it's true, you might be a stranger ..
but you're not that strange to me ..
to you, i know i'm a stranger ..but please don't run away from me ..
away from me ..
i can always rely on you to be there ..
looking up behind the cash register ..
if we met, if we rang all our good times ..
i can't disappoint you with only my eyes ..
it's true, you might be a stranger ..
but you're not that strange to me ..

to you, i know i'm a stranger ..and that's the way i want it to be ..

the metro .. the bus stops .. the market .. the disco ..blank cds ..
in strip malls .. in restaurants .. in juice bars .. in hallways ..
in parties .. the salon .. the airport ..in the rain .. in the streets ..
in sunshine .. in short sleeves .. in makeup .. at night clubs ..
in the dance floor.. all around ..
in the evening .. at sunrise .. at lunchtime .. at midnight ..
through windows of taxis .. classrooms .. highrises ..

- Figurine-

-- stranger, yes it's all around --

3.07.2006

hi there .. my unintended ..

you could be my unintended ..
choice to live my life extended ..
you could be the one I'll always love ..

you could be the one who listens .. to my deepest inquisitions ..
you could be the one I'll always love..

first there was the one who challenged ..
all my dreams and all my balance ..
she could never be as good as you ..

you could be my unintended ..
choice to live my life extended..
you should be the one I'll always love...

i'll be there as soon as i can .. but ..
i'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before ...
.. before you ..

hi there my unintended, do u copy ?